Friday, July 3, 2015

Power of followers (The Facebook Rainbow Symbol)

OK....wait. So i noticed that everyone has the rainbow over their profile pic and I asked if that means the person with the symbol over their profile picture if they are GAY or...Thinking about it? Whats up with the rainbow over the profile? When I posted this question on Facebook someone answered that "It means they support equality and equal rights for all." and another further explained that " Well it's mostly due to same sex marriage being legalized in the U.S." My rebuttal to that is So what happen to the equal sign wouldn't that suffice? Why the rainbow that most know an identify as the symbol for one that is living the alternative lifestyle? For instance I believe in freedom of religion therefore would it be ok to place a swastika on the face of my profile because it is a symbol for Hinduism, Buddhism and Jainism without being confronted by one that may know that symbol to be connected to the Nazi party that killed thousands of Jews? or would we say that's different? The response that someone gave was "Although most people who have that on their profile don't even know what it means, they just want to be like everyone else" Ahhh Haaa....that's what I figured but I just needed someone to admit this is what I am seeing when I look online and see all of these people doing this. See its not an attack on any group but growing up with what my H.S Teacher Ms. G taught us I just learned that everything isn't for everybody. Therefore one should truly research what they don't understand so that they know what they are standing up for...I wish more people would read The Wave and see how following one could lead to compete destruction. Cause what everyone else do could cause alot of confusion or issues. I truly believe the world has too many followers that one day we will wake up and ask ourselves what happen to our leaders.

Saturday, June 27, 2015

When do you throw in the towel?

Many may not understand this open journal of my expression but I’m sitting here 5:00am in the morning much like I am every other morning. Doing the same thing I do every other day-Trying to figure out a way for my family and I. But this day is different. See unlike the other days all motivation is lost. I feel a bit broken. So exhausted by the drama, sorrow, pain & hard ache. It feels like everything but the right thing is happening within my life. Then I reflect on my past and recognize that throughout my life I have been nothing but an example of what NOT to do. Yet I have been in a fight for 34 going on 35 years from childhood to adulthood with various opponents such as family secrets, street secrets, drugs, gangs, death, molestation, religion, mental health, physical health and the my worst opponent thus far…Life.
Thoughts of hopelessness begin to dance within one’s mind over and over like a rhythmic melody to an old jazz musician. With all of the downfalls and struggles it seems that I am in a constant bout with life and I continue to get knocked down over and over. The more I get knocked down the more I get back up. But I have been getting knocked down so long that I can physically & emotionally feel my drive and ambitions slowly decline. It’s wearing on me and I feel it. See being in the ring with this opponent “Life” I feel it is honestly beginning to win this fight and though I’m not a coward enough to just lie down on the canvas and take a count out. I know I am looking at my corner coach asking at what point will he throw in the towel? Through it all he hasn’t thrown in the towel yet therefore…I guess I have to keep fighting because know body knows me more than my Coach that wonderfully made me in his own image. I hope my negatives will make a positive in others lives.